Two weeks ago, I went into labor, and our baby was born at fifteen weeks gestation. It was very much less traumatic for me than the births of Abigail and Matthew.
Without going into testimony (much) I had been have cramps for several weeks, and that, on the heels of our previous two losses, gave me the opportunity to prepare for this birth. I had a wonderful prayer chain, and I felt that I was able to give it all up to God and trust that He has a plan for all of us. I was led to a story a few weeks before in Newsweek about parents who go through an entire pregnancy knowing that their baby will probably not live long after birth. This article gave me the courage to look at this pregnancy as a blessing, regardless of how long it may last. It really touched me and helped heal the pain from the last two pregnancies and let me know that every pregnancy has meaning, regardless of the outcome.
The birth of Abigail, and that of Matthew, held too much struggle and not enough dignity. With the support of my husband and wonderful children, I had a very calm, natural birth, part of life rather than a terrible event to be suffered. We are, of course, mourning still, especially with the loss of my father-in-law so immediately following.
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Hugs, Melissa. I am truly glad it went so well for you this time. You are loved.
((((Hugs)))) I have yet to come to terms with my two losses. Even though I think I've heard God's plan for my family size, I always had hoped for a larger family. I still feel cheated that I didn't get the chance to know my babies before they left me. You are such a strong woman!
Thanks Christy.
Thanks for the hugs Dawn, I think the hardest part of being quiverfull is realizing that it doesn't always mean a large family...just hearing God's plan. I certainly never in my life planned on a big family, and was told I could never have children.
(hugs) for your losses as well. I know many people who wanted large families but were limited by circumstances outside of their control.
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